As i look back on my life this past year I am amazed at how God has transformed me into the woman I am today. Last year at this time I was still struggling with the temptations of this world and dealing with the conformity of this world falling into Satan's traps. I was humbled by my creator and found a new meaning of what it means to live for the Lord. I had just made a decision to turn my life back in the direction that i knew it should have been in all along, and thought that it would be a good way to start. I found what it means to live by faith. I met other believers that had gone through the same struggles that I had just gone through in my life. They were able to minister to me in a way that I had never been ministered to before. I saw what the church is supposed to be, how believers are supposed to support one another.I met few of the person that I've seen they are fulfilling the works God has planted to them, and grew closer to some I already have.
The Lord showed me that he had already forgiven me. His arms were open to me to run into and he would lead me in my journey. I had to forgive myself. I was holding myself back by holding onto my sin that I had committed. It was like I felt like I had to hold it over my head or I would do it again. The Lord brought me closer to him and I didn't want to do anything to mess it up.
Over this past year he has shown me that I have to forgive myself in order to serve the way he wants me to. I cannot possible minister to others, when I am holding myself back with guilt of the past. The Lord has restored my heart. Every piece of my heart that had been broken he has rebuilt. Every hole has been filled, and I am over flowing with his love. Even these last couple of weeks I feel like he has been pouring into me and I love the feeling of almost bursting with the joy of the Lord.
This year, I feel like the Lord has shown me my purpose, share his love. I know, it's basic, and it's in the Bible, but he has truly revealed to me how important it is.
Finding my purpose in life has been a roller coaster ride, but I know God has been right beside me the whole time. He has put people in my life to help guide me along, and to those people I will be forever grateful.!
